Hello, Lurkers!!
I just want to say thank you to all of you who have spoken up to say hello! It is so great to find out who is behind those IP addresses! (No, I don't have the time to figure out which IP belongs to whom. It's just nice to know that there are real people behind them!!) I'm slowly getting to each of your blogs to learn more about you. Rahmi, you are right, I cannot read your blog. So, I guess that you will remain a mystery to me. But I do really enjoy the pictures of your family on your blog!
So again, thank you all for shouting out to me!
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Maura is still sleeping through the night. It seems that if I can keep her daytime napping on schedule that her nighttime sleeping is better and her overall mood is improved. I've started keeping a sleep journal, and I find it interesting that she doesn't sleep as well on the weekends as she does during the week. Even if we are home the entire day, her naps aren't as long. Could this be that she knows that her daddy is home, and she wants to spend more time with him??
I have also started sleeping through the night again, and I have to say, Yipee!! It feels great to have a full night's rest! I get so much more done during the day, and my brain is much less foggy.
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So dh has started talking about TTC again. I'm putting it off until after the new year. I want our kids to be close in age, but I want to get my body back a little before getting pregnant again. And, I have to say, that not being pregnant and not TTC right now is a very good thing. For the first time in a long time, I'm in a happy place. I'm not living life "looking forward" to or hoping for something. I'm also not living life worried about miscarriage. I'm just enjoying my family as we are.
Do I make sense here?
For so long,I was either longing for a healthy pregnancy, worrying about losing one, longing for a child, worrying about the reason for my two miscarriages, etc. This is the first time in a while that I'm content, really content! I want to celebrate and enjoy this! I don't want to quickly move on to the next thing. Especially when I know what the next thing can bring. I know that there could be more stress and worry ahead of me. But I'm going to put that out of my head for a while. I'm stopping and smelling the roses, and damnit if they don't smell sweet!
Sometimes I look at Maura, and I just tear up. I can't believe how amazing she is. I can't believe that she started as a small bundle of cells inside me. She is more than I ever hoped for. Her smile brightens my every day. Her laugh makes my heart swell with joy. She's such a beautiful gift.
posted by Christine at 8/09/2005 10:56:00 AM
6 Comments:
I know just what you mean, and you are definitely making sense. I can't even imagine thinking about ttc again any time soon...in fact, I'm pretty sure we won't again, which makes me a little sad, but I think it's what's right for us. I've been wanting to write about that for a while now, and maybe you've just inspired me to do it soon! Big (((hugs))) to you -- definitely celebrate that contentedness (and rest -- it's nice thinking about that in my future)! :)
hey Christine! glad Maura is sleeping through the night, that is great.
that is cool you and DH are talking of ttc in the new year, but I completely understand waiting, you need a little time for just you, and a little time for Maura to have your complete attention!
I'm so glad you've reached that happy place- and yes it makes perfect sense that you savor your precious little gift. They grow so fast you need to take the time to truely enjoy each and every little moment.
Well said!! So cool that you'll be TTC again after the new year, though! I'm conflicted about that myself... I'm so grateful for Maggie and I feel like I'm not satisfied if I try for another.. But we want more. I guess we'll figure it out...
Congrats on Maura sleeping through the night (and you, too!)!
I definetly wouldn't rush things. Having 2 is wonderful .. but hard. Enjoy having a little adorable baby and devote your time to her now ..because the next time around you feel like the oldest is getting slighted because you can't be as attentive. And then you feel like the youngest one isn't getting the undivided attention the first one got. Oh the guilt of motherhood.
This post made me very happy. We've come a long way the past few years and I am thankful every day for where I've come and I'm thankful, too, that many of my sistas are in that same content place.
It means so very much.
Thanks, too, for calling out your lurkers. I met some cool people from that post.
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