Transformation in Progress

Ok, so that's a great idea! Crista, I will call you and let you know of Charm's arrival, and you can post it on your blog. Crista, you may have to email me you number again. I can't seem to find anything since we moved!! I'll let you know! There is a chance that I can get to a computer while there, since I'll be at one of the hospitals where dh practices. I just don't know that I'll have the time or energy. So, if it's quiet around here for a while, and I'm not answering any email, check out Crista's blog!! Thanks, Crista!!

Also, another request. For those of you checking in on Charm's blog, I have a question for you! I'm really nervous about some people from the real world finding this blog. Especially those that I've vented about here. I've removed all links to my profile or this blog from there, but I realized that someone could possibly still find me through the links of my commenters. But I don't want to you stop commenting!!! We could do one of two things. I could ask you all to comment anonymously. This would do the trick, but I know that if it were me, I'd forget. The other idea is to ask you all not to post a link to this blog with my name on it. Like this Christine I don't think that any of the people that I'm worried about will go through your blogrolls to find me, so just don't link me in your posts. Does that sound ok?? Let me know...

I've been thinking a lot lately about how my role in life is changing. I'm changing into a Mother. I think that I'm up for this job, but it's a weird transformation. There's really no outwardly sign that it's taking place. Going through a pregnancy alone does not make one a Mother. I know of many women who have transformed in this role without ever being pregnant. I've been a pregnant wife for the last nine months.

I no longer think of myself first. I am constantly (nesting!!) preparing whatever I can for Charm's arrival. I'm still struggling with scheduling and such, though. I'm so quick to schedule myself wherever I need to whenever I'm needed (eg: doctor's appointments, hair appointments, etc.). Now I catch myself before answering. I mean, how do you get your hair cut with a baby?? Do they come, too??

I feel like I'm starting a new job without training nor a starting date. I have barely even been given a job description! But the only thing that I can do at this point is jump in with both feet. I am eager to do so, but scared nonetheless. What is below the water's surface that I cannot see?