So many things....

So I'm learning how to handle the fear and nervousness of this situation. When something comes up, when fear enters my thoughts, I pray, which brings me peace, and I remind myself that there is no reason that this pregnancy won't be a healthy one. I've gone through the testing. The other miscarriages happened because of random reasons. There is a good chance that this one will be fine (75% chance, in fact. Yes, I like the statistics). So between logic and prayer, I'm able to find peace and beat the irrational fears.

But how to do you combat fear at night? I had another dream about bleeding last night. I was so afraid and panicked in my dream. And no one was listening to me. It was frustrating! How do you fight those fears? How can I suppress that panicked feeling? I can't keep having these dreams for 9 months. I have to find a way to beat them.

I had a teacher in high school that was a dream therapist. I doubt that I will ever be able to find her again, but maybe there is a book that will help. I'll have to add that to my list for the next trip to Border's.
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My parents are in town for the week. It's good to see them. Today, we are going to the campus of UConn to see some stinky flower that only blooms every 10 years. I don't know if this is a good idea for a pregnant woman who has a bionic sense of smell go to see a giant flower that smells like rotting meat. But it's like a trainwreck...I can't avert my eyes....I'll post pictures later.
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Ok, Janet wants to know what we are calling this little one. So far, dh and I have a few names. This first pregnancy was named Speck--because he/she was the size of a speck. The second one was Chip because we were hoping that it was a "chip off the old block." We've called this one Charm--"third time's a charm," Lucky--along the same lines as Charm, we're hoping that we're getting lucky, and Rocky--because we need this little one to be a real fighter. After calling it Lucky and Charm, I'm afraid that I may give birth to a little Leprechaun shouting about yellow diamonds, blue moons, green clover, and purple horseshoes! So we've been using the name alternately. You are all welcome to call this little one whatever you want. Hey, here's an idea...vote for the name that you like...I'm interested in what you all think...