A news report and an update on fear
I can't believe people sometimes. It is amazing the crap that they do! This news report made me very angry yesterday. There was a newborn, not even five pounds, just hours old, who was abandoned in a town near me.
There are so many of us out here who desperately want a baby, and this woman just leaves her baby on a doorstep somewhere. She doesn't even drop the baby at a hospital to receive the care that she needs in those crucial hours right after birth. She just abandons her child! What I'd like to do to her if I could get my hands on her!
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On another note, I am feeling more calm today. I think that it helped to express my fears yesterday. And even though my symptoms are different, there are still symptoms there. I even had two episodes of nausea yesterday. They were mild, but definitely present. So my hope was restored a little.
And there really is nothing that I can do; it's completely out of my control. So I leave this up to God to help me get through the next 17 days until I have my ultrasound. I pray that He continue to give me signs (morning sickness? I'll take it!!) that things are ok. I will be afraid and have doubts, but time will still pass one day at a time until the 28th. And whether I'm feeling hopeful or terrified, this pregnancy will progress as He wants it to.
We're in His hands now, and I trust Him.
posted by Christine at 7/11/2004 07:51:00 AM
6 Comments:
those news items make me so angry. I read one last week where a girl got up in the middle of the night, sat on the toilet, delivered twins and shut the toilet lid. It devestated me. So many women (and men) would have loved those babies.
Thanks for this post, though. Yesterday I had a bad fear day, but this brought me some perspective. I trust him, too.
Glad to see you're better and sick to your tummy =)
UGH .. it just makes me sick sometimes. Those of us who want babies so badly can't seem to get them some times. Then there are the people that don't want or care for their children but seem to pop them out like gumballs out of a gumball machine. It just baffles me!!!
I hope you have some more signs and a healthy pregnancy too! I know how absolutely crazy we can drive ourselves thinking all the time about whether or not we feel sick or not sick, tired or not tired... arg!
My thoughts are with you,
Rachel
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Well, I missed your fear post, but I'm glad I got to read this one first! I'm glad you are feeling better, and just know that how you feel at THIS moment is not how you might feel tomorrow or next week, or next month! And you know what? Its OK! A little 'freak out' here and there is OK too!
I'm glad you are feeling peaceful now, and you know, 17 days isn't THAT far! Just think, in 17 days you'll be how far along?? Thats pretty exciting!!
This will all work out for you Christine, I promise you that! :)
I'm glad you're feling a bit more calm today Christine! Those hormones can be pretty tricky to deal with, you're doing a great job!
I forgot to say on the message boad - I would be honoured to have a link to my blog from yours.
Jackie
I just stopped by to check on everyone & the blogging. It is strange about your news report, we have had 2 similar stories in a week!!!! Last night I lost it, it made me sooo upset. Last weekend at a fair someone left a 11 wk old in a 5 gallon bucket carried it through a crowded fair to abandon it. Then last night it was a story about at a beach in the bathroom someone must of m/c they believe b/c they left blood & tissue. No one reported having any problems either. At first it made me mad b/c of the first story but then it made me sad. The poor gal maybe she was scared & freaked....m/c is not an experience I wish on anyone. Sorry for rambling here...
I am glad you are doing better with your fears Christine, you and little "Rocky" are in my prayers
Tanya
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