I've had a very busy week!

Well, this week, we put our house on the market. No doubt about it, we are moving. Our house is on Yahoo Real Estate already! It only took 24 hours! Eventually, there will be a virtual tour and everything.

So today, we are trying to get rid of clutter. Essentially, someone could call to see the house today (Yikes!), so we need to get moving on getting into showing condition. You really don't realize that you're a pack-rat until something like this comes up. And we've only been here a year! I just cleaned out the Master Bedroom and closet, and dh is currently cleaning out the closet in the Family Room. Then, we move onto the dining room, which, instead of having a dining table and chairs and such, contains boxes of our wedding china and serving ware. We don't have a lot of furniture yet, so the house is pretty empty.

I haven't been feeling as nauseous the past couple of days as I was before. Of course, that worries me. But I do still have symptoms, and I know that symptoms come and go, so I'm not letting myself become consumed with worry. I'm going to sneak into Paul's work and get another ultrasound in a couple of weeks. I'll hang in there until then.

I am finding that there is a low level of worry that is always present in my life now. Even when we've seen the heartbeat on the ultrasound, I'm not allowing myself to feel only joy or happiness. I'm guarded. But I guess that that is only normal, considering the circumstances. I think that I've gotten used to the worry, too. It's just there, like a shadow. Sometimes, the shadow of worry grows bigger than I am, sometimes, it's just a spot below me. But for now, we are a pair. Me, and my shadow.