The week continues...

My current mood is

I saw a quote on a message board somewhere, and I can't remember exactly how it goes. If anyone out there is familiar with it, and knows the exact wording, please let me know. The quote is: "Lord, I wanted a child to hold in my arms and tell him all about You. I don't have that now, so will you hold him and tell him about me?"

A friend of mine reminded me of this quote today. We were talking about my would-be due date coming up this weekend. When I think of my babies that I've lost, I only think of them as being absent from my life. She reminded me that they are in Heaven looking down on me. I needed that reminder today.

What every mother wants most for their children is that they are happy. Even though I never saw their faces or held their little hands, at least I can be at peace with the fact that they are happy where they are with God.

So I will think of something special to do to celebrate his angel day. I will do my best to avoid thinking of my loss. I'd rather think about where he is now, and celebrate that. I don't know what I'll do just yet. Any ideas out there?
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I just received a call from my RE's office. The results of our kareotyping are in. We are normal! I'm glad for that. Since it appears that both miscarriages were chromosomal problems, we should have just as good of a chance of anyone else of having a healthy pregnancy. We are still waiting the results of the pathology from the D&C. Those aren't as significant, though. Although I'm curious to find out the gender. I always thought it was a boy.
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Mom and my aunt are coming in town tonight. I'm actually looking forward to their visit. I hope that with the shopping, sight-seeing, and such that I will be able to relax. I've been too stressed lately.

I still haven't O'd and Paul comes home tonight! So we haven't missed anything. We will just have to be quiet and creative while my guests are here! Cross your fingers for me!!